[ He's not sure he sees how that pans out even if they do somehow manage to change Kylo Ren's mind. ]
He's gotten the chance to leave before. Didn't seem to think of it as a rescue.
[ If Slip showed up here tomorrow, Finn thinks with sudden clarity, or hell, even Nines or Zeroes, he'd try. He'd try until it got him killed or until it risked getting someone else killed.
But he would try, because stormtroopers don't get the luxury of choice, because Slip didn't get a chance, and at a certain point Finn knows it would be because he's selfish, too. Because he doesn't want to be the only one to make it out. He doesn't know anyone who would have gone with him but sometimes it still feels like something must be wrong with him, or that he must have done something wrong. ]
Hard to convince someone who doesn't think they're on the wrong side. Maybe they'll figure it out. I don't know.
[ Maybe they can do what his father offering a way out and a family to go back to couldn't do, somehow. Maybe part of Finn just resents how easily a door opened up for Kylo Ren, when he had to rely on luck and desperation, terrified of the fact that he'd lowered his blaster against orders and terrified of something he'd been raised to see as unstoppable turning against him. #NarrativeFoilProblems
If Rey or Leia need help, he'll be there in a heartbeat. But the space has been good. ]
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[ He's not sure he sees how that pans out even if they do somehow manage to change Kylo Ren's mind. ]
He's gotten the chance to leave before. Didn't seem to think of it as a rescue.
[ If Slip showed up here tomorrow, Finn thinks with sudden clarity, or hell, even Nines or Zeroes, he'd try. He'd try until it got him killed or until it risked getting someone else killed.
But he would try, because stormtroopers don't get the luxury of choice, because Slip didn't get a chance, and at a certain point Finn knows it would be because he's selfish, too. Because he doesn't want to be the only one to make it out. He doesn't know anyone who would have gone with him but sometimes it still feels like something must be wrong with him, or that he must have done something wrong. ]
Hard to convince someone who doesn't think they're on the wrong side. Maybe they'll figure it out. I don't know.
[ Maybe they can do what his father offering a way out and a family to go back to couldn't do, somehow. Maybe part of Finn just resents how easily a door opened up for Kylo Ren, when he had to rely on luck and desperation, terrified of the fact that he'd lowered his blaster against orders and terrified of something he'd been raised to see as unstoppable turning against him. #NarrativeFoilProblems
If Rey or Leia need help, he'll be there in a heartbeat. But the space has been good. ]