[ he takes a breath. okay. this is. gonna be fine. (spyder should be here. where is his emotional support droid when he needs it the most?) ]

So. Um. Most of the time we were there, we were in a relationship. You and me. [ exhale. ] I don't want you to feel like -- we rushed into it. [ poe and finn??? rushing into things????? sounds fake. ] And it kind of ... we had a fight. Sort of. Me and Rey had a fight and you were there. But after that, you left. And I don't know if it was because they just made you transfer and it was bad timing or if it was because of me. [ what if he throws up right now. ]