[ oh no. he should have anticipated this, but he did not. the part where he actually has to talk about ... how relationship attempt one went.
rey is in his head like "he said he liked you the first time why would that be different????" but he's in his own head like "consider: i'm a human disaster." still waiting for that yeet out.
also rey in his head: "YOU SHOULD TELL HIM EVERYTHING HE DESERVES TO KNOW!!" also poe in his own head: "yeah okay but what if i left some details out bc of how fuckin stupid i am. what if we did that huh." ]
I felt that way before we showed up, you know? Before anything happened. So don't think ... it wasn't anything special that happened in Hathaway.
[ he groans internally. two paths diverged in a yellow wood: one is lying about how stupid you are and the other is admitting how stupid you are even though you JUST DECIDED not to admit how stupid you are. those are the paths. a poem by bobby frost. ]
So. Uh. After ... I don't know, a week, maybe two weeks, I told you I loved you. [ does finn need social context for that? probably. ] People don't usually do that. You're supposed to wait. I still -- I don't not. But I should have waited.
[ how does he put this into words. he is not a smart man. he's not bobby frost. ]
It was nice. It was good. We were on missions most of the time, so we never really -- we didn't spend that much time together. There wasn't any hard stuff. But I think I should have waited because ... well, after the whole thing. After you left. I freaked out because I thought you left because you got to know me and didn't like what was there. And if we -- if I waited, maybe that wouldn't have happened.
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[ oh no. he should have anticipated this, but he did not. the part where he actually has to talk about ... how relationship attempt one went.
rey is in his head like "he said he liked you the first time why would that be different????" but he's in his own head like "consider: i'm a human disaster." still waiting for that yeet out.
also rey in his head: "YOU SHOULD TELL HIM EVERYTHING HE DESERVES TO KNOW!!"
also poe in his own head: "yeah okay but what if i left some details out bc of how fuckin stupid i am. what if we did that huh." ]
I felt that way before we showed up, you know? Before anything happened. So don't think ... it wasn't anything special that happened in Hathaway.
[ he groans internally. two paths diverged in a yellow wood: one is lying about how stupid you are and the other is admitting how stupid you are even though you JUST DECIDED not to admit how stupid you are. those are the paths. a poem by bobby frost. ]
So. Uh. After ... I don't know, a week, maybe two weeks, I told you I loved you. [ does finn need social context for that? probably. ] People don't usually do that. You're supposed to wait. I still -- I don't not. But I should have waited.
[ how does he put this into words. he is not a smart man. he's not bobby frost. ]
It was nice. It was good. We were on missions most of the time, so we never really -- we didn't spend that much time together. There wasn't any hard stuff. But I think I should have waited because ... well, after the whole thing. After you left. I freaked out because I thought you left because you got to know me and didn't like what was there. And if we -- if I waited, maybe that wouldn't have happened.