Fighting each other was pointless. At the end of the day, we wanted the same thing. We were on the same side.
[ It feels so distant, putting to bed that animosity and trying to hold it back. Admittedly, her telling is slightly out of order. But it's easier to contextualize it this way than to rehash play-by-play the strained back-and-forth they'd had. ]
Kylo knew that, of course. [ Things Rey is tired of: Kylo Ren being right. ] He'd been with ALASTAIR a while before I was conscripted. And he tried to tell me as much, but I was so angry with him.
[ She'd been the one to tell him Han was dead. She'd been the one to show him her memories of the event, force that upon him before it had come. In truth, that had been crueler than what she'd done to him in Perdition's Rest. Seeing how he crumbled under it … that must have been the start. That's what she settles on, now. ]
But then he was gone, and … I felt so alone. [ She looks at her hands. ] I had found a teacher, Kisuke Urahara, but he wasn't a Jedi. He didn't know the Force — only something similar enough to suffice. I'd never wanted to accept Kylo's offer to teach me, but he was my only chance to learn from someone who understood, and he was gone.
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[ It feels so distant, putting to bed that animosity and trying to hold it back. Admittedly, her telling is slightly out of order. But it's easier to contextualize it this way than to rehash play-by-play the strained back-and-forth they'd had. ]
Kylo knew that, of course. [ Things Rey is tired of: Kylo Ren being right. ] He'd been with ALASTAIR a while before I was conscripted. And he tried to tell me as much, but I was so angry with him.
[ She'd been the one to tell him Han was dead. She'd been the one to show him her memories of the event, force that upon him before it had come. In truth, that had been crueler than what she'd done to him in Perdition's Rest. Seeing how he crumbled under it … that must have been the start. That's what she settles on, now. ]
But then he was gone, and … I felt so alone. [ She looks at her hands. ] I had found a teacher, Kisuke Urahara, but he wasn't a Jedi. He didn't know the Force — only something similar enough to suffice. I'd never wanted to accept Kylo's offer to teach me, but he was my only chance to learn from someone who understood, and he was gone.