[ 'Usually,' he says, and she finishes, 'But not now.'

The closest thing to this she'd felt was with Keith in that truth exercise, and she'd come away from it feeling entirely like he was trying to leave her. They both had other people, he'd said, which she took to mean they didn't need to rely upon one another anymore. Cling like the universe was going to fall away if they didn't.

But Keith had told her she was wrong, then, and she hopes she's wrong now. There's no anger in Finn, none that the Force will show her at least. Only confusion. ]

I'll understand if you're upset with me.

[ She opts for this. Not being able to understand why someone makes the choices they do is a shortcut to anger and outrage. She knows this, and she won't hold it against him. ]

Or if you need time, or you'd rather I don't talk about him.

[ All of these are things that she has tried in other ways and failed in other ways with Hathaway. She offers them now as though they could somehow be strategies. ]

But I told myself for months that Poe and the other Finn wouldn't understand my feelings, and that I had to hide them. All it did was make me feel far away from them.